It's always darkest before the dawn

Time to get Serious.
I remembered that I have this app on my phone, Japan Radio. So I'm going to listen to this little NHK broadcast every day. They were talking about snowfall totals, the Olympics and stocks.

The following morning...

Now wondering whether I ought to have changed my layout after all. I can always go back and forth.
I am despairing a wee bit. I could not find the NHK broadcast from yesterday. They seem to only load ones from the past 24 hours! I searched the menus and found one that was 古い, but it was only for ordering the current list by most to least recent, for today. I needed more practice and I was understanding that one. XD;; The current lineup for today (of which there are several!) includes some unknown vocabulary and I am just sitting here like, how am I supposed to improve lol. Yuzuru, help me. I have been looking at his skating videos and the copious gif and photo sets on Tumblr for moral support, just for life in general.

So I was Committed and ordering books and taking this Seriously, which I still am and fully accepting that I might not get an outside job for a bit or that rather I should not focus on it so much as get the translation up and running. I know all too well that necessity is the mother of invention etc etc. So of course, last night as I was pondering bed, I see an e-mail in my inbox! Alison at the café in town that I applied to back in December(!) wants to interview me for the asst mngr position! I have until Wednesday (thank fuck) to get my appearance et al together. I have not exactly been dressing up these past few months what with COVID. It is not like an Office but at the same time...
It is not as if I am not dressed nicely, albeit casually. Pretty much living in a bizarre combo of addidas track pants and button-ups cause I cannot bring myself to be too casual. *sigh*
I am not at all complaining! At the very least, it is ego-boosting and gratifying to know that someone actually values my experience and appreciated my cover letter enough to contact me! I am grateful, though I am wary of its interfering with my studies and my main purpose(s) which are to start a translation business, do translating work and to write. I am pretty sure that it is not FT from what I read on the advertisement weeks ago.

This is just hilariously typical. Like Ralph says, when you don't feel like you want or need something or you are not begging, you get what you want(ed). XD I, of course, do not know how it will turn out. Perhaps she will not even like me? We shall see. I have plenty of time to prepare at least which is a relief and in the meantime, I can study my arse off, secure in the knowledge that I am covering all of my bases! I was just making a vlog yesterday where I was speaking my intentions for this year and where I hope to be in a few months time and this is pretty cool. The energies seem to be all aligning into a discernible pattern at last. <333 Thank you!!!

Oh, and I filed my taxes, at last.👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻

( Semi-Gratuitous Yuzuru Pic )

Felt the desire to write in here and mull over things this morning. It's crisp, clear and cool with a slight breeze.

In the midst of all of the familial crazy, I have been a bit harsh on myself. I feel after a mere week of losing my footing with the story and Russian that I am somehow stagnating. Losing sight of the time table. I know that there will be slow periods where life is hectic. But I am going to sit and open the document and go over things to ensure some sort of movement. And whenever I am doing that, I will listen to a writing playlist or some piece of piano music, some symphony so that I can train my mind onto certain things. I really need to start practicing composing music out of that workbook that I have and the half a dozen theory books. No excuses. I have ideas and I should not wait until I have mastered every scale before jotting things down.

Remembering the staffs still proves annoying. The letters still do not stick, but I need to be better so that I can notate things that I hear and come up with. I'll just keep staring at them until it is such second nature that it overcomes my bizarre wiring (not that I have not already been taking that tack for months).
I might just color the sheet music. It's mine. I bought it. Nobody is going to arrest me for doing it. It might solidify the lettering as well as help me to learn the piece more quickly. YES.

I watched a youtube vid about not having too many tabs open because it creates mental clutter. I am such a tab junkie and while I will not be able to entirely abandon that habit, I think that I can commit to at least finishing my open tabs and leaving no more than two or three open when I close Chrome. Eventually I will get it down to one. I just made my e-mail manageable again! I deleted a bunch of crap and marked a bunch of unread fanfic "for later" until I get over to the site to dedicate some time to reading. I just can't have it all sitting starred in my inbox for weeks. -_-

And the only thing that I can wash my face with lately is WATER. All soaps tend to piss it off. I thought that I looked like hell, so I splashed my face with water and looked a bit better. I simultaneously have oily an dry skin with occasionally red, irritated not quite pimples. As in, my skin is oily underneath the flaking. :( It isn't even that it's dry in some places and oily in others. That at least would be straightforward.

Listening to Lang Lang play. He managed the first one really well, but he sort of bangs on the keys in this one. Hmm. I am so sick of having a cluttered desktop so I am listening to all of the stuff I had just sitting out there everyday as a reminder to listen to it.

My life is full of reminders: reminder tabs, stickies, actual post its, starred e-mails, documents/pics/??? on the desktop, books pulled a few inches out of place on bookshelves, fridge magnets.

It is getting pretty ridiculous.

My goal today is to rid myself of this stuff by doing it or letting it go.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that a big, bushy Robin appeared on my balcony this morning early. I take that as a good sign. Robins are always good to see especially is they start singing.